Why do I always get chosen to be the team leader of any programming project The work is killing me.

What next after I graduate? Work, continue studying?

24 this year, I feel old. What have I accomplished so far?

I’m spending too much money on my education. Is the degree worth every cent spent?

My social life is close to zero as assignment deadline and exams get closer.

How do I let my parents know if I found out I failed a subject after they have paid for tickets to Melbourne to attend my convocation. Man.. I’m so dead if this happens

Lastly…. I wish those that I like find me special.

Today, Palm made my day a happy one. She messaged me yesterday that she bought something for me while she was out. Something she thought would cheer me up. She refused to let me know what it is insisting it to be a surprise. Today, messaged her saying I’ll wait in school for her but she told me to go back first saying I would not want to carry her gift around . Was wondering what it was.. Went back home and at bout 5, she came over with my gift. I was so surprised.

FLOWERS…. Its a stalk of tulip. Muahahaha.. for the first time ever in my life, I received flowers From a girl too.. hahahaa.. Call me conservative or old fashion, but I’ve always thought that guys are the one who’s suppose to give flowers to girls. This time, its the other way around THe tulip not really bloom but now, its slowly opening up. Sooooo pretty…. Thx Palm.

Went to willamstown after with her, after she came over to pass the flower to me. We went for ice cream and it was lovely. This ice cream shop in williamstown has so many flavours I don;t even know what to choose.. Droooollss… Took this honey crunch and caramel crunch and it was lovely. Sat by the port taking tons of pictures after that. Great day, even though I had to go to school early for my group meeting. This weel is our holidays and while people are enjoying themselves, I’m using it to catch up on all my asignemnts. Can you beleive that this is my third semester in RMIT that i actually have to go back to school and do assignments during the holiday?? Bummer..

Been playing DOTA too and the last 3 nights were great. Basically, we won every single game we played. Woohooo.. not bad.. Go Go team nooooobie. Our opponents team consist of Joa, Gina, Rue, and Royce. My team consists of mainly Nelson, Iwen and Dzung. Sometimes someone would be missing and would be replaced by Veron. We won the first night and since then, Joa’s team been wanting revenge but yet they keep losing . They even all went to Joa’s place so that they can communicate better. that explains why Nelson and I thought that their attacks were very well coordinated. In the end, we still won. Muahahahaa… Nothing like a good team to bring about a victory in DOTA

Mum woke me up in the morning telling me she got tickets in to Melbourne for my convocation ceremony. Yes people.. its my final semester in school. I’m through with studying. No way I’m gonna continue with my masters. Not now at least. Maybe 5 years down the road. I hope I do well and pass everything this semester. Would hate myself if I failed anything and my parents all here for my ceremony which I can no longer attend

Sick of studying.. I now have a pretty flower on my desk. Muahaha.. night people…

RMIT’s school network went down pretty long few days back, on Wednesday. My PHP and MySQL server went down together with it. Pretty disruptive stuff. Thank god I managed to get everything up and running again after the network is up. No loss of data too Reza was more unlucky. His MySQL server went down and he lost all his tables and database. Man… I’d be so pissed if that happened to me. reading up on the school’s news board, I found out the reason why the network crashed. Simply put it… damn stupid that its so hilarious.

As quoted from the network administrator…

Hi all,

It has come to our attention that the second part of your assignment
involves the coding and testing of a multicast server. In the past
week this has resulted in several outages of the RMIT network and
the downing of yallara and numbat, due to badly coded applications.

We have spoken to the academics in charge of this subject, and for
time being, we request that people do NOT continue to work on
question 2 of the assignment. Expect an announcement from your
lecturer in the near future telling you what, if anything, will be
replacing this question and when it will be due in. As I understand
it, you are to continue working on question 1 of the assignment and
expect to submit it at the current due date. Again, please seek
clarification from your lecturer and tutors.

Your co-operation in this matter will be greatly appreciated.

Cheers, Peter.

Muahahahaha WTF!!!! It went down cos inexperienced students were running buggy codes. Hahahaha … yes! Let’s test students’ buggy multicast applications, (which they’re probably not even equipped to debug properly) on a live network!! GREAT IDEA! LOL.. I hope this is at least a lesson to those affected students to NEVER try a stunt like this in the workforce . Pushes go button. Hopes . Oh no…. What have I done … why is everyone yelling at me … These sorts of network applications should be sandboxed, with guards at the entrance/exit. Should have not been tested on live networks.. Morons.. hahahahaaa… It doesn’t help the network too, when some students are forwarding multicast with another multicast! Muahahahaaa….

Anyway, all disruptions have been due to a mixture of student inexperience (that’s why they’re studying after all) and incompetence ( RTFM dammit! ). So I probably shouldn’t get too negative about it . I didn’t experience anything bad though. Thank god.. or I’d have blown my top .

Hope the system admin learns from this incicent. No more testing of network applications on a live network

I’m having one of those days where nothing ever goes right for me. Everything I did seems to be wrong. I guess I’m not really a people person. I only meant well…. with good intentions but in the end, shit still happens. Maybe… I’m just better off being alone? Can’t even seem to communicate well. Tried to do the right thing, or so I thought but it only made things worse. Guess I should just stay away from people till I can figure out wtf is wrong.

How would u feel, knowing that u could have saved a friend from a terrible experience. One which caused lots of unhapiness? Knowing that u were there and could have made a difference but cos u walked away, something bad happened. I felt bad it happened. Very bad bout it . Tried not to let it happen a second time but turns out she got mad at me instead

I’ve got so many things to say but I don’t have any idea how to put it across. Am always misunderstood that I’m just so tired to even try to explain. So be it if u think I’m wrong. So be it if u blame me for it. I’m tired… really tired… I only meant well…

Taken from Yenying’s blog…

I’m finding it harder to be completely honest. As if I’m scared of being vulnerable. As if, I’m developing a phobia of being exposed. To bare your soul. To hand your heart over and not know whether it’ll get hurt or not. It’s funny. I used to think that we should just give it our all. So what if we get hurt. So what if things don’t turn out the way we want it to. At least we know that once, we had it. And now this. This phobia. I can’t understand it. Why. I don’t like it. And yet I find something rather comforting, reassuring about it.

And the tears. They don’t come easily anymore. And when they do, they’re bitter.

How true. I need some silence now. When chocolates dun even help improve my mood, somethings really wrong… sigh.. I cant even code properly too now